Here we go again.

Yay! Two posts in a week, maybe I'm getting back into business. Updating the blog today has been devastating. Looking at all the progress that I've undone over the past few months is really disheartening. The only thing to do, though, is to move forward. The question that is plaguing me right now is, how? Part of me says, look how far you got counting calories, just go back to the way that works! Another part of me think that I should try weight watchers again. I'm intrigued by the new plan and I think a change may give me that extra motivation that I need. Weight watchers has not been a took that led me to success in the past, though. What do you all think? How do you all proceed in weight loss? Do you do WW? Count calories? Low carb? I HAVE to do this and I feel so defeated right now. Seriously, I could just cry at what I've done to myself...again.

On the surgery front, it went well. I didn't need near as much repair as we thought going on. Turns out I had a bone spur that was shredding a tendon instead of a tear. The pain is still pretty bad, but just as soon as I get clearance I'm going to start exercising. Pam, I'm still planning on that half-marathon in November....are you?

How are you all doing? I don't think there's many of you left out there! For those that are still there, thank you so much for hanging in there with me! I promise to be a better blogging buddy. I have been keeping up with you all, just not commenting. Lastly, does anyone know what happened to Lisa from No More Diet Drama? I know she had several blogs but the last one has disappeared and I miss her!

It's me, the broken record.

Well, hi there :) I'm so sorry about my long absence! Thanks to those that sent emails checking on me. Several times in recent weeks I've started to blog, but I haven't had much to say, and it's so embarrassing to check in and tell you all about failure. Things are crazy, the weight is piling on, and I'm out of control. The holidays are never an easy time, but, in all honesty, I've used them as an excuse to eat whatever I want.

Tomorrow (or later today, really) is my shoulder surgery. I'm super anxious to get it over with and get healing. It will be so nice not to be in pain every day. With the surgery, though, comes a little less control over food. I did stock my kitchen with healthy choices and plan on getting a walking routine together as soon as possible.

Although I'm a broken record, I have to say it. I WILL get it back together. There's no other choice.

Teeter Totter

This is me, I'm on a weight loss teeter totter and I can't seem to get off. Somehow I continue to exist in that no man's land, where I'm not completely and totally out of control, but i'm certainly not IN control either. I. HAVE. TO. GET. IT. TOGETHER. All the way together. Not mostly together with a side of cake and french fries. Together.

It's confession time. Confessions are good for the soul, right? I hope so! So, here we go. In all honesty, I'm typing this post after I visited our company bake sale and consumed 3 coconut cookies.....and bought raffle tickets for a cake. Yeah....I have no excuses, they were just bad choices, tasty bad choices, but bad choices nonetheless. Also, last night was the first night in a week that I've cooked. We've had a lot of takeout and sandwiches. I do have a slight excuse for this. My shoulder is still killing me with no relief in sight. Some nights I just don't have it in me. The truth is, though, that some nights I do and I just haven't done it. So, in case I haven't mentioned it before, I have to get it together.

I've really noticed an interesting trend here with my out-of-controlness (haha, like that new word?). When i'm really in control eating-wise, I do better in all other aspects too. I'm better at housekeeping, exercising, working, parenting, etc. Looking around right now, I feel very overwhelmed at all that needs to be done. My house needs cleaning, body needs thinning, documents need writing, clothes need washing, grass needs cutting, etc, etc, etc. When I start to feel overwhelmed like this, I tend to shut down because I don't know where to start. I need to start. I have to get it together. Now.

The Bzzz: Tom's Wicked Fresh! Toothpaste Review

Hey all! So, things are pretty good one the weight loss front. I'm getting back into the groove, but slowly. I'm going to try really hard to post more and keep you all more up to date on the situation. I also want to expand the blog to talk about other topics. After all, there is life outside of weight loss, right?

That being said, here's a product review! I'm a Bzz agent through http://www.bzz.com/, which is a word of mouth program. Basically, I get to try samples of products in exchange for spreading the word about them. It's pretty cool. Right now I'm trying Tom's Wicked Fresh! toothpaste. This stuff rocks! Although I usually don't get overly excited about toothpaste, this is good stuff. It really leaves your mouth feeling clean for hours and, the best part is, it's all natural. I'm going to try to pick up the mouthwash too and the children's version for the kiddies.