Fakin' it until I make it..and update

Phew...I've been gone awhile, and the scale shows it! I'm up...yikes...7 pounds! Needless to say, weighing was not a fabulous experience. So, I absolutely, positively, HAVE to get back on track. No ifs, ands, or buts. It is going to be hard, no doubt, but I've done it before and I can do it again. I know how to do this, I do. So, one meal at a time, one bite at a time, I'm going to do it.

Right now I feel panicky and out of control, but I'll fake it until I make it! Truthfully, I HAVE been out of control. Confession: I ate not one fruit or vegetable yesterday. How sick is that?? That's ok, though. I won't beat myself up, I'll just put myself on the right track and keep on truckin'. This morning started off with a yummy spinach smoothie. I brought some high fiber cereal and grapes for a snack, a low cal lunch, and dinner will be Pam's YUMMY baked falafel. Sounds yummy and low cal. Back to tracking my calories on sparkpeople and posting here! I've missed all of you! (I hope there are some of you left reading this!)

In other news, I've been having shoulder pain for about 4 months. It's been getting increasingly worse, but I'm not a big fan of the doctor. Finally, I gave in and went and he sent me to physical therapy. Then it got a lot worse. So, I had an MRI last week and I'm waiting for the results. The doctor thinks I tore my rotator cuff, but I have NO idea how I would have done that. I can't remember an injury. Ibuprofen works during the day but at night, wow, it hurts. I see and orthopedic doc this week. Hopefully we'll get on the road to recovery soon.

Hope all is well in blogland.

I'm still here.

A hundred times I've started to write a post, but I don't have much to say. I'm still really struggling. Every day has been a "new start." Hopefully, today is the "new start" that sticks. That being said, I'm reading all of your blogs and cheering you all on!