Thursday, September 15, 2011
Although I haven't been commenting too much, I've been reading blogs like crazy and everyone is SO inspiring. You guys are all doing so well. Those of you that are struggling are so inspirational to me, too, because you have such strength of spirit. That's what it's all about!
For workouts, I'v begun a half marathon training schedule. It's a little crazy, but for the first time in my adult life, I RAN a whole mile. A whole mile! I'm up to a mile and a half now. It's a painfully slow pace, but i'm proud of myself nonetheless. I had a little setback in that my pedometer was telling me that I'd run farther than I had, so I THOUGHT i'd done better. I THOUGHT I'd run a 12 minute mile and already run 2 miles without stopping, but that's not the case. When I realized my pedometer was off, I ran last night and tracked it on mapmyrun.com, and, turns out I've been running under 2 miles and between a 13-15 minute mile. At first, I was so bummed out. Honestly, I thought about quitting the training program because I'm too fat and too slow at this point. But, quitting is not an option! I know that's a crappy pace, but you know what? I'm ok with that. I'm still making progress. When I started, I could run 2 minutes before stopping...now..I can run 22 minutes without stopping. Progress! Maybe I won't make next year's Disney Princess Half Marathon...maybe I'll have to run a later one, but that's ok. I'll run one.
So, what's new with all of you? I'm curious as to how many calories you shoot for a day, for those of you restricting calories? Each calculator I use gives me a different value!
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
So, I'm back into the swing of things and wanted to share it with you. Part of this process for me is blogging, so expect more posts. I've certainly been keeping up with all of your posts and cheering your successes.
Want to hear another secret? I committed to doing a half-marathon with a friend in February. I know how crazy this sounds, but, it gives me a goal to work toward. Even if I don't end up running the whole thing, completing it will be HUGE for me. My first practice run went well, better than expected!!!!
More later, but just wanted to tell you all that I'm Back!
Friday, June 10, 2011
Thursday, June 9, 2011
So, in an effort to find that motivation that I lack, I want to list things that I want out of this journey:
1. I want to be healthier, with lower BP, ankles that don't swell, and more energy to play with my boys.
2. Prettier clothes that fit right and that I use to accentuate the good parts of my body rather than being happy to find clothes that fit and hide my body.
3. Freedom from food addiction. In my house growing up, food was love. I have to break that mindset.
4. I want to be able to go past a mirror without averting my eyes. Now, I avoid mirrors at all costs. I want to be able to enter a room without immediately looking around to figure out if I'm the fattest person there. I want to be able to go to the beach without panicking over being in a swim suit in public.
5. I want to stop identifying myself by the number on the scale or the size on the tag. I want to see myself as something other than fat.
So, here are some goals. Just for the week, the week starting now:
1. Work out 4x this week. No excuses.
2. Stay within 1800 calories per day.
3. Track my food intake every day.
4. Drink 8 glasses of water a day.
5. Take measurements and then put the scale away. No obsessive weighing.
So, that's it, pretty reasonable, huh? I can do this. One day at a time.
Friday, May 27, 2011
Daily I've wanted to post, to reach out and tell you all, those that are left, that i'm lost and i'm wandering, and I can't seem to find my way back to healthy eating. Intellectually, the answer is easy, less food more movement, good choices 85% of the time, and results will follow. If only it were that easy in practice.
Every day is a "new day." A "new start." Every day I think this is it, this is the day when I make better choices, when I stop eating junk, stop the emotional eating, stop the 3:30 trips to the M&M jar at work. These new starts are lucky to make it past lunch. The thing is, this healthy way of life, the weight loss process, is work and right now I feel so beat down, so deafeated, so helpless that I don't think I can do it. It's not laziness....like I said, I've been working out like crazy....I don't know what it is, but I have to find that motivation somewhere. I have to do this. It's getting scary. I want to enjoy my children, my friends, my clothes, my life. Instead I spend every waking moment thinking about how I hate the way I look and feel, punishing myself for my choices. It's a cycle that I can't seem to break. I'm tired.
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
The great news is that I really feel like i'm making strides with the mental aspect of this journey. I'm accepting myself, being more forgiving of myself, and I've stopped looking at this like every bad choice is going to break me nutritionally. I have a long way to go, a LONG way to go, but i'll get there.
Medically, things are a different story. The doctors just can't figure out my shoulder pain, so I have lots more tests to do. Hopefully there will be an answer. "You're just a medical mystery" is really not doing it for me.
Hope things are well with all of you. I've been a bad blogging buddy, but I WILL get back in the swing of things!
Monday, April 18, 2011
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Friday, March 18, 2011
This may not seem groundbreaking...but for me it is. I.FORGIVE.MYSELF.
I'm working on a post right now with some ideas that I really want to share with you, but i'm still marinating on them. More to come...
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Eating has been ok, not fabulous, but not bad. Every day gets a little bit better and those small changes will add up, I know they will. Calories have been between 1800-2000. Like I said, not great, but not horribly awful either. I'm incorporating more vegetables and lean proteins in our diet. We've had a lot of stir fries without oil, shrimp, and fish. I keep picturing that movie, "What About Bob?" and telling myself "baby steps to good health." Cheesy, but you do what you have to, right?
So, my question for all of you who workout early is, how long did it take you to get in the habit of getting up early and when did your body adjust? This schedule is killing me and by 2pm every day all I want is a nap. The boss is not so big on this idea though....
Hope all is well! Healthy, happy choices everyone!
Friday, March 11, 2011
Food hasn't been as easy. Like I said, good days and bad. Earlier I wanted to find a post I did near the beginning of this journey and couldn't. I was reminded, though, of how I started this, where my I found success and and where I didn't. It was a quick overview, but I really think that it would be a good idea for me to revisit earlier posts, and try to find my mojo again. So, that's the weekend plan, find the mojo. Really, this IS 99.999999% mental, right?
Hope everyone has a fantabulous weekend! We have SO much planned. Yay!
Friday, March 4, 2011
Confession: Cooking fish scares me. It just seems so delicate and so easy to over/undercook. I'm also not a fan of "fishy" fish. So, most of the time, my family just doesn't eat it. Well, in an effort to make another step in the healthy direction, I've vowed to cook more healthy fish recipes. I came across Gail Simmons' Honey Glazed Salmon recipe and decided to try it. I'm SO glad that I did!!! Even though salmon is one of those fish that I only like if prepared exactly right, I deecided to be brave. If you decide to try it, don't leave out the quick pickled cucumbers, they seriously make the dish. SOOOO yummy! Here's the recipe, enjoy:
1 hothouse English cucumber, sliced
1 cup rice wine vinegar (can also use white vinegar or red wine vinegar)
1/2 cup sugar
Pinch of kosher salt
1/2 medium red chili, thinly sliced into circles
4 6-ounce salmon filets, boneless, skin on
2 tablespoons vegetable oil
2 teaspoons kosher salt
10-12 turns freshly ground black pepper
2 tablespoons toasted sesame seeds
4 cups cooked brown rice
1 cup low-sodium soy sauce
1/4 cup honey
1 teaspoon grated fresh ginger
1 clove of garlic, peeled and minced
FOR PICKLED CUCUMBER: Begin by making the pickled salad so it can sit while you prepare the salmon. In a mixing bowl combine rice wine vinegar, sugar and salt. Mix well then fold in sliced cucumber and sliced chili. Cover with plastic wrap and set aside in the fridge.
FOR SALMON: In a small saucepan add soy sauce, honey, ginger and garlic. Set over medium-high heat and bring to a simmer. Reduce heat and simmer for 10 minutes. Set aside.
3. Take a large, oven-proof, non-stick sauté pan and set over high heat (use two pans if needed). Rub filets all over lightly with vegetable oil. Season both sides with salt and pepper. Once pan is very hot place the filets skin-side down and press down gently with a spatula so the skin remains flat to the pan. Cook for about 6 minutes then liberally glaze the top side of the filets - you want to have some glaze swirling in the bottom of the pan too as this will caramelize with the crispy skin. Turn off heat and flip salmon so skin side is now on top. Allow to rest in pan for 3 more minutes until cooked through.
Place salmon filets on top of a cup of brown rice, skin-side up. Drizzle a little more glaze from the pan on and around the plate. Top with a little pickled cucumber salad and sprinkle with toasted sesame seeds.
Monday, February 21, 2011
My recovery from shoulder surgery has been a struggle, as I'm still in about the same amount of pain as before surgery. I've also developed some hip pain on the opposite side, I swear it feels like I'm falling apart! I'm too young for this. It's been a good kick in the butt for me, though, as I KNOW I wouldn't be in this much trouble if I'd lost the weight I need to lose. The good news is, I'm turning it into a motivation. I went running the other day for the first time in a LOONNNGG time. Now I've made it through the first week of the C25k program. It was rough and I've certainly lost all of the progress I'd made, but it really feels so good to be MOVING again. Of course, because of the hip I can barely move afterwards, but I'm taking baby steps. this morning I even got up at 5:30 to run, which is a HUGE thing for me. I can't deny that I feel so much better, so much HAPPIER when I'm exercising.
The thing that I know I need to work on the most is my mindset. I need to get right mentally and stop letting my weight and my disappointment in myself be the focus of my life. For awhile when I was on a roll last year, I was really in a good spot. The thing that changed it all? Going off of that water pill and seeing a gain on the scale. Even though I KNEW it wasn't a "gain" I let the scale dictate everything and lead to another weight loss downfall. So, this time, I'm going to focus a lot of energy on getting right not only with eating and exercising, but also with my outlook.
So, that's where I am! I hope all of you are experiencing great successes, with weight loss and otherwise!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
That is EXACTLY what I've been doing, self destructing. The pressure around our house these last months has been immense between my shoulder surgery, DH's heart scare, and job issues. Instead of dealing with the stress in a healthy way, I ate. A lot. Of Everything. Unless it was green, or good for you, then I didn't. Ok, that's a little extreme. I did have some vegetables and fruit, but, mainly, I made some horrid food choices. I also failed to move my body in any meaningful way. The scale is reflecting it.
More important than the scale, though, is how it's affecting my life. I have no energy, I'm unhappy, I feel generally bad, my clothes don't fit, my skin feels icky. I feel icky. Lately, I've even found myself not wanting to play with the kids, just wanting to lay around. That's not acceptable. At all. I have no other choice but to start again. Make good food choices, MOVE, get in my water, get healthy. After all, it's only failure if I quit, right? I've lost the right to self destruct.
Exercise is a little trickier than normal, because, unfortunately, the shoulder is in the same shape that it was pre-surgery. But, I can walk. I'm going to get back to walk/jogging tonight and I have to promise myself and you guys, right here and now, that I will not let it get to me when it hits me how badly I've let myself go, when I can't walk as far or jog as long. One foot in front of the other, that's all it takes.
For my blogging buddies, I've been keeping up with you! I'm SO proud of all your successes!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
As for me, I'm in a dark place and I can't seem to find the way out. It's all so overwhelming. My shoulder does not appear to have been successful, my husband is having a heart related scare, and I cannot get my eating under control. I've resisted posting because I'm so sick of typing it and I'm sure you're sick of reading it.