Friday, July 9, 2010

You know that's not normal, right?

First off, HI!!! *waving* I've not dropped off the face of the Earth, I've just been bogged down with..well..life, I guess. Work has been much more hectic than normal and my family has been on the go for the past few weeks. Thank you to everyone who wrote an email or left a comment wondering where I'd gone. You guys are awesome and make a girl feel good :) I apologize for being a bad blogging buddy. I've been reading all your blogs and keeping up, but not commenting much. This is my promise to do better!

Surprisingly enough, I haven't been too bad, eating wise, during my short hiatus. Fourth of July was rough, we had a cookout with some friends and I know that I went over my calorie limit. It's the FIRST day since February 2, though, that I didn't track my calories. I'm kicking myself for that. Other than the cookout, though, I've done pretty well. I think my fluid balance is FINALLY evened out after coming off that medicine.

A have an old "new" friend at work. She and I have always been pleasant, but lately we have gotten closer. We've gone to lunch several times and tend to chat a few times a day. One day last week she and I were having a conversation at work about weight loss. We are both plus sized women and, I think that gives me a little more freedom to discuss things with her in the weight/food arena. Is that odd? At any rate, I was telling her about the frustration of seeing a "gain" after coming off of a diuretic and how it was messing with my mind. She asked me how many times a day I weighed and was FLOORED when I replied that it was at least three. She doesn't own a scale. It really shocked her when I told her that, sometimes, if I don't like what I see on the scale at night, I'll try not to eat dinner or at least eat lighter so it will be a better number in the morning. That's when she said it. The question that really hit home with me.

"You know that's not normal, right?"

Well...yes, I guess intellectually, I *do* know that's not normal. The problem is, it's become *my* normal, and it's not healthy. Not at all. It's become so routine to me, though, that I can't imagine it any other way. This is why in Deb's Freedom Challenge, one of my goals is to weigh less often. I can't say I won't weigh every day, but hopefully not multiple times. I'm doing ok with this goal.

Another conversation that hit me hard recently was with my brother. He was in town for a short visit and we went to lunch together before he caught his plane back home. We were talking weight loss and such. He and I have never really discussed it much until recently. He works out all the time, is in the military, and has always been in pretty good shape. He's in medical school now and so we've been discussing healthy habits more often. I can't for the life of me remember what prompted him to say it, but he said, "I think you have a mild eating disorder." My initial gut reaction was denial, but about thirty seconds later, I thought...well, yeah, obviously!

I share these conversations with you because they are all part of my journey to get healthy, both physically and emotionally. "Knowing is half the battle," as GI Joe says. So, now I need to figure out what to do with this information about myself!

So, do any of you have any quirky weight loss habits?

5 comments:

  1. It's those little "bits" along the way that get us the information we need to succeed. Those little bits are invaluable!

    Thanks for your kind comments on my blog and I'm gald you got your goals in! :D

    Re: the ice cream. Yes, it can be just frozen bananas--or you can add other fruit, either frozen or fresh.

    If I use just bananas, I find that I have to add a couple tablespoons of milk--although any liquid would do--or it's too dry.

    You freeze bananas. One large banana makes a big bowl of ice cream. After frozen, take out of freezer and let sit on counter for about 5 minutes so that you can get a knife through it.

    Chop into about 1 inch chunks. Put them in the food processor and turn it on. Hold on to the machine. :)

    Scrape down as needed, add milk if it looks grainy. It takes abaout 5 minutes all together.

    You'll be amazed at the result.

    If I add blueberries, I usually don't need the liquid. 1 banana + 1/2 c frozen blueberries.

    You'll experiment and find out which foods work best. If I add frozen strawberries, it comes out moer like sherbet than creamy ice cream. Still good!

    The main thing is to let it whirl in the food processor long enough. You'll tell when it's done--it looks all creamy. :D

    Deb

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  2. Glad to see you are back! :) I think we all have our "food issues". But seriously, yours sounds fairly easy to solve regarding the weigh thing.

    I try not to weigh myself more than 1 time a week and I have heard that many times trainers or nutritionists recommend weighing yourself only once a month.

    I think that a far more productive use of numbers would be for you to track caloric intake (and outtake), and not scale weight. There are too many variables with weight...

    Have a great weekend! :)

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  3. I think so many of us have "little eating disorders". It actually has a name EDNOS....eating disorders not otherwise specified. I've read an awesome book written by a girl called Life Inside the Thin Cage about EDNOS.

    I weigh at least 2x a day...probably more. It's ridiculous. My first thought about the cruise was...how the heck am I going to go a week without knowing my weight. How stupid is that?!?!

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  4. I figure I have an eating disorder too. I eat as much as I can and I exercise as much as I can. I know that if I eat without working out, I will gain more than I already weigh. I think people who are obese have an eating disorder or an "non-activity disorder". I know the root of my problem and I mostly work through them. Like, "Rosa, you don't need a muffin because you are anxious about picking up the kids at 4:30 and rushing home to cook dinner before 7:00 p.m. T-Ball." We have to work through our issues. Try to read "Women, Food and God." It may give you some clarity.

    And for what it's worth, I weigh in everyday because I am doing The Line Diet where I graph my weight to see the bigger picture. It has been helping me make changes to stop from overeating, especially during my high activity days. Good luck. Thanks for commenting on my blog. It is nice to know you are visiting.

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  5. I tried not to weigh a whole week and ended up gaining. I don't know what to think about the scale. It's a frustrating piece of metal!!! Feels like if I weigh only once a week, then if I have a gain, then there's nothing I can do about it. If I weigh daily, then I can at least know where I'm at. I try not to freak out about what I see. I just keep doing everything I know to do, everyday!!! Eventually the little number goes down!! Keep on fighting and don't give up ~ no matter what! Hugs!

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