Yesterday I spent most of the day with my kids, mom, and grandparents. We really had such a nice time. It's been awhile since we spent any length of time with them, and we all needed some quality time together. However, as I've said before, a lot of my food issues, I think, come from the way my family viewed food. I realized this weekend that I'm MUCH more likely to eat mindlessly or at least make unwise calorie choices when around my family. It's like I walk into my mom and grandparents' home and I think I need to immediately eat. What's with that?
I thought I'd share a conversation that I had with my grandmother this weekend. Keep in mind, it wasn't all at once, this was over a 30 minute period. It really highlights the food issues:
Grandma: Eat something! I have rolls, ham, corn, beans. Eat!
Me: No thanks, I JUST ate lunch. I'm full and I'm also saving calories for my sushi night out.
Grandma: Just a little bit? How about a roll and some ham?
Me: No thanks. I'm good.
Grandma: Fix a plate! Just a little bit. It's good for you.
Me: Nope, really. I'm good.
Grandma: I also have chili, chop suey, and bologna.
Me: I'm really not hungry.
Grandma:I'm sorry I don't have anything you like to eat. I wish you would eat something.
Me: Ok, I'll eat a piece of ham.
See. I gave in. Again. I was guilted into eating. How sick is that? Now, granted, I had the calories, but that wasn't the point. The point was, I wasn't hungry, I didn't WANT anything. But I ate.
This weekend was chocked full of poor choices like that. Notice my calorie intake was high. Really high. Still within my range, but high. Saturday night was my birthday. I saved up a lot of calories to go eat sushi with the girls and go to the new nail bar (it's a spa and a bar, what more could you want?) I really had to guesstimate my calories, I couldn't find nutritional information for some things. I would not be surprised at all if I really was over my limit, but they were my best guesses.
Yesterday was better, my calories were lower, but my choices weren't great. I feel myself slipping. Gotta get back into it! I'm considering posting my menus for a few days for accountability. Here's today's planned menu:
B: Cliff bar, water
L: Grilled shrimp salad w/ balsamic vinaigrette
D: Shrimp chili pasta w/ tomatoes
S: (if needed) Jello SF chocolate mousse.
My projected caloric intake today is around 1550, give or take a few.